Hey Jago, long time no see! I used to go by “OJuggernautO”, idk if you remember me. You were always a chill dude from what I remember. I know what it’s like man. I could write a book of how unfortunate my life has been. Not even kidding. When I tell people even a little bit of the shit I’ve been through, they either think it’s insane or don’t believe me.
So I’ve learned a lot. And one of the most important things I learned is that life isn’t about what hand your dealt, it’s how you play the hand that you were dealt. Like, life is filled with a lot of bullshit that you cannot control. You learn that how you handle the situations that happen is far more important than the situations themselves. Like I said, I’ve been through some pretty damaging things, both mentally and physically that most people don’t experience in their entire lifetime. But all of those things taught me something. If I didn’t learn from all my experiences, who knows if I would even be alive right now.
My point is, you have to take the hits on the chin and keep moving forward. You are only ever defeated when you choose to be defeated. YOU have to make the choice though. You can have an infinite amount of support, but no one can make the decisions for you. It sounds rough, because it is, honestly. I’m not going to sugarcoat it.
Also, pointing fingers at people and blaming them for how your current situation is will never be productive. It will create a huge void in your life that will be absolutely impossible to fill or repair. I’m not trying to tell you how to live your life, just trying to give advice that I had to learn. I also don’t pretend to have all the answers, because I don’t, no one does. But when I see someone who is obviously going through some shit, I want to try and help. So please understand that. If you ever need anything let me know.