Anyone here have anxiety or depression, if so how are you coping right now?

[MKF30]

So obviously there's a lot going on right now with the crisis were facing, so I was wondering who else here suffers or has suffered from anxiety disorder or depression?

I've had anxiety disorder unfortunately since late 2007, so yeah it definitely sucks. Especially when you have a bad anxiety/panic attack. It can feel draining, humiliating and scary like you know that feeling that you think you're going to die or are dying but you're actually not. Since then I get it from time to time, for years I have had it at bay between breathing exercises, mental focus, distracting yourself, friends and family just talking can help. Everyone has their own way of coping besides prescribed medications. I was on prozac for a while, but recently got off it ironically just before the virus hit the USA and the rest of the world. So since then had a few bad attacks, it sucks. The good news is I also have xanax but I make a bottle of 60 last me a year, alot of years I only took a few or not even 5 pills. I'm thankfully not a pill popper, but only when absolutely needed like dueing bad attacks. I've had some people joke about just have a drink, smoke weed etc but that to me would only do more harm than good.

Maybe other people it may help, hey more power to you but definitely not for me.

As for depression I've had this as well but only here and there, and I have to say from MY own experience I definitely feel anxiety is worse. Not saying depression is good it's not I've known people personally as well as know people who's loved ones committed suicide due to such and that's a shame. Different people are different obviously.

Anyway, I've been good for 4 years without a bad attack til March. I have found to avoid the msm as they love to scare people to sell papers and make you watch talking about the negatives and not enough on the positives. Staying off certain social media except to talk to my friends and family.

I tend to be in alot, not like this I'm sure none of us are in this much as now so in a way I'm somewhat used tonit but some people don't handle cabin fever well at all. I make sure to at least take a wall around my block on nicer days and people are friendly and smart here in my area. People walk to the other side of the street or in the street if someone is coming. Then go back into house prison lol. But comedies, gaming well some games( mk 11 causes stress and anxiety lol)

Anyway enough about me how is everyone here coping?

 

[Arqwart]

Anxiety baggage here. I will say up front that I know this thread probably isnt for me as my anxiety is entirely social.

This isolation has barely changed my life in the slightest and has been so easy to do. While I do miss seeing friends and I do prefer to go to clients for work, working from home and just doing regular calls with friends / family to check in is 100% a-ok with me. I'm also already somewhat of a clean freak so washing my hands a little more often and wiping down touched surfaces after having been outside my apartment is just a little more than the usual.

Seeing all the posts everywhere of people saying they're going mad in quarantine just make me laugh.

 

[Gooberking]

I'm pretty anxious as a person, but usually deal with it by not being around people. Work was really bothering me and I'm generally happier right now just being able to chill at home and not deal with it or anyone. At least for now.

Even preferring to be on my own, I've been flying totally solo for quite a number of years now. I learned a long time ago that that seems to eventually do some damage. It can make me negative and cause pretty severe depression. It's something I have to watch out for, the last couple of years I can tell I'm slowly going back down the hole.

For social people the current world situation has to be a really a hard thing to deal with. It's not just the pressure and anxiety of the world situation, there are lots of ways people are mentally at risk right now. People aren't particularly well built to do what we are doing. You are stuck with people you may or may not get along with. You maybe can't see people you are really close to, or like me I have nobody here at all. When it all drags you south, can you even get consistent care in a world where you may not even be able to go to your medical doctor?

 

[Juggs]

Absolutely. I have both anxiety and depression. Medication prescribed by my Doctor is what helps me the most. And it sounds cliche, but eating healthy, exercising and drinking lots of water seems to help me personally. Something about feeling healthy helps with my mental state and health. Regardless of whether or not it helps just a little bit or even if it’s a placebo effect, it doesn’t really matter.

Keeping healthy relationships with friends and family also helps. Meaning actually making an effort. You can be social in these times while also social distancing. Via phone calls, texting, interacting on social media, gaming together and chatting, etc.

Another thing that helps is gaming. Again, it may sound weird, but the escape I get to take from the real world into the world of games definitely personally helps me. It’s one of the reasons I’m so passionate about gaming. It helps my mental health tremendously.

I have anxiety and depression in general. But the stress of the current situation we are living in is making it that much worse. I’m not going to get into everything I’m going through, all I’m saying is this pandemic is only exacerbating the issue. As I’m fully aware the same thing is happening to most people. Just a very dark time for everyone. Just have to try and keep your head up and take it one day at a time. Otherwise you will be overwhelmed by it all!

 

[MKF30]

Ok nice posts, I understand dude. I can relate. Mine sounds similar to juggernauts and goobers, more so than arquarts. I have no issues with social anxiety, since there's different types for sure.

Mine is I guess general anxiety, thing that's sucks is is when you don't know what triggers your anxiety especially attacks. I know one thing that triggers mine, lack of sleep I'd I don't get to bed til 6, 7, 8 am. I'll feel like crap and very anxious the next day and will Increase my chances for having an attack. Other times like now I feel generally anxious which alot of people have been calling 911 and their docs regarding apparently here in NYC. Understandable.

Yeah talking to friends, watching something funny definitely helps. Exercises eating healthy helps for sure. Sometimes we all need some meds to help, I dropped the prozac because I'm trying to not depend on it my entire life you know? But I still take two other things a beta and my xanax when needed, which thankfully is rarely....

 

[moonknight9]

I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and ocd by my psychiatrist. It's been a tiring battle I've been fighting for years.

 

[Hemlock]

I've had really bad depression for a long time and have made a lot of progress over the years through therapy. Big things that are helping me right now are:

• Meditation
• Talking with trusted friends
• Keeping up with a schedule
• Categorically avoiding or extremely limiting the amount of news I take in

And the other thing I'm trying is: returning to message boards I haven't visited in years, in order to have fun, stimulating conversations that are (mostly) organized by topic. One problem that I have with social media is that I might find myself "ambushed" by triggering content. My idea here is that I can come to the MK11 forum and expect most of the conversation to be on topic. That helps me feel safe.

 

[scarsunseen]

Well, there's a pandemic, my grandma died 4 days ago, and I was supposed to have much-needed surgery in 3 weeks but that's postponed for 6 months now. (I don't want to elaborate.)

I also been diagnosed with PTSD and mild OCD. I've lived through really, really hard times. I smoke a lot of weed and it really helps, dead serious. I don't drink or do any drugs. My therapist is on board. It legit helps. Weed and coffee are my vices that help me cope. My partying days are long over.

This isn't meant to sound uncaring at all: I'm already very experienced in living through what feels like apocalypse multiple times. I'm a little numb to this, which might be good for me in a weird way for coping. I might just need more time to process all of this.

 

[Hemlock]

Well, there's a pandemic, my grandma died 4 days ago, and I was supposed to have much-needed surgery in 3 weeks but that's postponed for 6 months now. (I don't want to elaborate.)

I also been diagnosed with PTSD and mild OCD. I've lived through really, really hard times. I smoke a lot of weed and it really helps, dead serious. I don't drink or do any drugs. My therapist is on board. It legit helps. Weed and coffee are my vices that help me cope. My partying days are long over.

This isn't meant to sound uncaring at all: I'm already very experienced in living through what feels like apocalypse multiple times. I'm a little numb to this, which might be good for me in a weird way for coping. I might just need more time to process all of this.

Condolences about your grandma

 

[scarsunseen]

Thank you. Her passing is unrelated to coronavirus. Just really bad timing (it never is) because it will be difficult for family members to arrange funeral plans and travel.

 

[DragonofDadashov24]

I’ve been in depression since 2017. Still fighting my way out of it, mostly unsuccessfully. I suffer from depersonalization, it’s when you can’t find yourself that is gone somewhere and you think that the world around you isn’t real. Anxiety happens to me very often.

 

[chud_munson]

Got diagnosed with GAD this year. It was a crippling, daily battle that was made much, much better by going to therapy. I was very lucky to find an incredible therapist that was a very good fit for me. I'm still anxious and get depressed from time to time, but have gotten much better at accepting that's a part of who I am sometimes. In short, I have the same problems, but don't view them so much as problems anymore.

 

[MKF30]

Wow some interesting backstories here, also I totally get it some folks may not want to reveal details you may feel uncomfortable with. Perfectly fine.

Hopefully this topic can become an outlet for people to cope, talk to one another about whatever.

I've found that while I don't know everything that triggers my anxiety, I know mk 11 sometimes in KL can trigger ir(I know this sounds silly) but actually serious I'd I'm already feeling bad or anxious playing ranked is not a good idea for me. It gets me angry and in turn anxiety.

 

[deathstroke187]

if i didnt had my son i wouldnt probably be around. Thats how im still pushing

-i have no family alive beside my son
-huge lawsuit to deal with (8k)
-lawyers fee
-my health is going down hill
-lost a very good friend who died 3 months ago
-split up with my woman

 

[DragonofDadashov24]

if i didnt had my son i wouldnt probably be around. Thats how im still pushing

-i have no family alive beside my son
-huge lawsuit to deal with (8k)
-lawyers fee
-my health is going down hill
-lost a very good friend who died 3 months ago
-split up with my woman

Damn, man
Hang in there, that’s rough

 

[Hemlock]

Wow, agreed, that's rough.

If there is anything I can do (for you or anyone else reading this) please let me know. I'm a good listener.

 

[MKF30]

if i didnt had my son i wouldnt probably be around. Thats how im still pushing

-i have no family alive beside my son
-huge lawsuit to deal with (8k)
-lawyers fee
-my health is going down hill
-lost a very good friend who died 3 months ago
-split up with my woman

Wow that's depressing man. I understand though, I feel the same way about my folks. I have no siblings, well I do but I was taken away from them since I was given up at birth...yeah long and very depressing story. Haven't dated or had a serious GF in years since high school that's over 2 decades so yeah..., but then I live in NYC so yeah....just compare a city chick to a country girl and you'll know exactly what I'm talking about but I digress....

I'm glad you have your son, I'm sorry to hear that about your friend.

I'm glad your son drives you, every day I wake up even before this CV shit, I wonder what's the point? We all die anyway at some point(sorry I just have a very dark view on the world often) which I know don't help. I'm sure you're a great father.

 

[thlityoursloat]

I have a whole host of mental issues, including pretty bad body image issues, depression since I was a young teenager, anxiety and mood swings. Unfortunately I live in a culture where mental illness is taboo and any thought of reaching out is met with comments that’d just make you feel worse.
The past few days I’ve been feeling like absolute crap, and the only way I can really cope is by indulging in unhealthy vices. I keep telling myself to quit or at least tone down the smoking but there is no way when the main trigger for me starting in the first place is always right there.
will delete this soon tbh.
I’m sorry for what you’ve all been through, I wish you all the best.

 

[Hemlock]

I have a whole host of mental issues, including pretty bad body image issues, depression since I was a young teenager, anxiety and mood swings. Unfortunately I live in a culture where mental illness is taboo and any thought of reaching out is met with comments that’d just make you feel worse.
The past few days I’ve been feeling like absolute crap, and the only way I can really cope is by indulging in unhealthy vices. I keep telling myself to quit or at least tone down the smoking but there is no way when the main trigger for me starting in the first place is always right there.
will delete this soon tbh.
I’m sorry for what you’ve all been through, I wish you all the best.

You're not alone - the social stigma on mental illness is truly insult to injury - the one nice thing is that there are people out there who understand you (like most of us in this thread) and we won't give you those pandering, condescending comments, we'll just listen.

 

[fr stack]

S

Well, there's a pandemic, my grandma died 4 days ago, and I was supposed to have much-needed surgery in 3 weeks but that's postponed for 6 months now. (I don't want to elaborate.)

I also been diagnosed with PTSD and mild OCD. I've lived through really, really hard times. I smoke a lot of weed and it really helps, dead serious. I don't drink or do any drugs. My therapist is on board. It legit helps. Weed and coffee are my vices that help me cope. My partying days are long over.

This isn't meant to sound uncaring at all: I'm already very experienced in living through what feels like apocalypse multiple times. I'm a little numb to this, which might be good for me in a weird way for coping. I might just need more time to process all of this.

Sames , my father went and had to have his whole colon removed and they found cancer all while this shit is going on on top of that they booted him out of the hospital because of the virus so its been me and my brother mainly caring for him .. stay strong sistah!
On topic DO NOT WATCH THE NEWS its a tried and tested formula to fuck your head up and terrify you

 

[Hellbringer]

Lots of hearthbreaking stuff i read here and i tought i had it bad...take care guys and be safe. <3

 

[BRAZILIAN SHEEP]

If the anxiety or the depression are caused by "physical" reasons, like, lack of some hormone and so on....you have to treat that going to the doctor and maybe, using medication.

BUT, the majority of cases are induced by the world we live in, and the system we live in. Listen to how many "we have too's" we come across during our lives. "You have to be succesful, you have to be smart, you have to have a family and kids, you have to grow your status and reputation, people need to like you, me me me me me I I I I I..."....everything is propaganda and induced since you are born, so, if you are anxious you become veeery anxious and depressed, and if you are not, you receive a lot of invitations, and depending on how you see you and life, you become depressed.

There is a lot of ego and self centeredness involved too. When you look at thw world and understand what it is, and how impermanent things are (including you) and how much suffering people endure.....and the opposite too, which is: art, poetry, nature, beauty, love, compassion....there are a lot to enjoy and learn here....after seeing all that depression becomes bearable, and you deal with your mind telling you incoherent shit.

 

[AREZ God of War]

Both as long as I can remember, I just roughed it out most of my life, but the last 5 years i turned to drinking.... Not the "let's drink beers and have fun" kind of drinking I've done since the 80's but a "oh good morning, whiskey for breakfast, 24 hours a day to the point I'd forget i haven't actually eaten any food for a week or 2 (even 3 weeks once) whiskey, whiskey, whiskey"

I've caused myself countless health, problems, had either a mild heart attack or a mini-stroke from drinking so much last year, put myself through alcohol withdrawal 7 times at least since 2015.

I was going through a half-gallon every day this most recent time, and would be so sucked into my own world using drinking to avoid the reality where my anxiety and depression existed, i was unaware of time passing... I quit smoking 3 times by ACCIDENT because I was just so DRUNK I FORGOT to get up and light a cigarette just like forgetting to eat.

I had to get a camera shoved down my throat to figure out why was vomiting massive amounts of blood, as well as liver and kidney tests. i was preparing to hear "you have cirrhosis" but i tore open my throat lining from drinking so much, coughing and wretching while ironically my lungs tried to clear out nearly 30 years of tar.

I... uh... don't drink when I wake up anymore but I have no intention of a life without Alcohol entirely

Folks, this is exactly how you DON'T want to try dealing with anxiety and depression.... Alcohol should be FUN, not a damn medication

 

[thlityoursloat]

Both as long as I can remember, I just roughed it out most of my life, but the last 5 years i turned to drinking.... Not the "let's drink beers and have fun" kind of drinking I've done since the 80's but a "oh good morning, whiskey for breakfast, 24 hours a day to the point I'd forget i haven't actually eaten any food for a week or 2 (even 3 weeks once) whiskey, whiskey, whiskey"

I've caused myself countless health, problems, had either a mild heart attack or a mini-stroke from drinking so much last year, put myself through alcohol withdrawal 7 times at least since 2015.

I was going through a half-gallon every day this most recent time, and would be so sucked into my own world using drinking to avoid the reality where my anxiety and depression existed, i was unaware of time passing... I quit smoking 3 times by ACCIDENT because I was just so DRUNK I FORGOT to get up and light a cigarette just like forgetting to eat.

I had to get a camera shoved down my throat to figure out why was vomiting massive amounts of blood, as well as liver and kidney tests. i was preparing to hear "you have cirrhosis" but i tore open my throat lining from drinking so much, coughing and wretching while ironically my lungs tried to clear out nearly 30 years of tar.

I... uh... don't drink when I wake up anymore but I have no intention of a life without Alcohol entirely

Folks, this is exactly how you DON'T want to try dealing with anxiety and depression.... Alcohol should be FUN, not a damn medication

This feeling is the fucking worst.
I know cigarettes are bad for me, I fucking hate how they make my lungs feel like crap, but I just cannot imagine my life without them because they just make everything better. Lately the only highlights of my day have been getting to chainsmoke while drunk, cigarettes and alcohol go together like peanut butter and jelly and the first time I did this I just felt sooooooooo.. happy.

whyarewestillhere

 

[AREZ God of War]

This feeling is the fucking worst.
I know cigarettes are bad for me, I fucking hate how they make my lungs feel like crap, but I just cannot imagine my life without them because they just make everything better. Lately the only highlights of my day have been getting to chainsmoke while drunk, cigarettes and alcohol go together like peanut butter and jelly and the first time I did this I just felt sooooooooo.. happy.

whyarewestillhere

Ain't it a bitch when the only things that make you stop feeling like you're dying are killing you?

What culture frowns on depression and anxiety?