Thank u everyone 4 hangin in there with me and checking with me for updates on my dads situation...but again ive been stabbed in the heart by the doctors with bad news.....
Update: I went to see my dad in the hospital today for the first time since they said he opened his eyes, he was looking rough, his beard had grown back and so was the little hair he head left on that bald head of his lol....but anyway i got some clippers and shaved my dads beard and what i could of his head since i really cant move his head out of the position they had him in, but i was cut short of playing barber for my dad when the nurse came in and asked me to stop because he was having seizures, my mom said his damage to his brain was sustained on the right side therfore he wasnt really showing signs of activity on the left side of his body, but his ride side shakes and his muscles contract because he has no control over them anymore, my dad had his eyes clothes a majority of the time but he opened them twice and when he did the first time i lit up with joy! First time i had a smile on my face since this whole ordeal it truely made my day, it even looked like he looked at me and then glanced at my mom but idk... Then he opened them for a second time and i noticed something, his eyes didnt shine with life, nor consciousness, or though it seems...before i left my mom talked with the doctor and he delivered a pretty crushing blow to whatever little joy i was feeling from seeing my dad open his eyes, basically he said that it wasnt him opening his eyes, the cause of his eyes opening was the seizures, and that whoever my dad was before this incident he is no longer in that body, and basically if they were to operate on him at this point they would just be operating on "a body"...while he was telling my mom this i was staring at my dad shaking in his bead as i lean up against his room window, wondering if were just delaying the inevitable at this point...i dont want my dad becoming a prisoner of his own body, but then again is his soul still even in there? Or are we just prolonging a body by hooking it up to an life support machine, idk, my mom doesnt wanna let him go without knowing that she did all she could, and i agree, i feel like its in gods hands now the decision is his from this point out once we get him in a medical home, the doctor said my dad has anoxic brain injury which most patients die from after being released, if god has a purpose for my dad still being here then he will see that the purpose be met, if he wants him home in heaven it will be done, medical science is already being explored with stem cell research to repair damaged cells in the brain from lack of oxygen, giving the brain the ability to repair its lost cells (something the human brain is not able to do at the moment) But i feel we are getting close to finding a solution, maybe if lucky my dad can become a candidate 4 that in the future, but who knows just gotta keep faith till the very end, i shed tears today at work thinking about everything..."sigh" its getting harder and harder for me to visit him because it just brings back the pain all over again, something i try covering up, but anyway just filling u guys in, keep praying for him, and thanks again.
