Soul Bound X
Kombatant
Depression is a feeling I'm too familiar with. Ofcourse not year round, with not a second of happiness. There are some times when I'm happy. But lately, ugh, it's just been unbearable. In highschool I didn't have any friends or girlfriends. Like not one. I was just socially retarded. I was like this through middle school and high school. Didn't have a dad, my mom was extremely childish and never had a mother son relationship with me. Rarely ever shown affection. Life was just so fucked up and lonely that I just wanted to die and attempted suicide (play me the worlds smallest violin) . But at 17 I finally quit school got my GED and tried to really change myself and i did. I started dating and got girlfriends and friends and I'm a totally different person today. But... My social life still isn't as great as everyone elses. Its still not great, I'm unhappy with it. ESPECIALLY when I don't have a girlfriend to distract me from the fact. Which is the case now. I'm great at talking to people and being in social situations. Im not shy and people think im funny and many girls like me but my social life is still dumb and shitty. I have friends but not real close ones and never go to parties or anything like that and am rarely having any fun. And just feel lonely a lot. And I just get soooo depressed over it. I can never tell whether I'm being a baby or am justifiably depressed. Idk what this thread is about really, i just wanted to say that. Guess it can be about anything you want.