Lol, Hmmm, nervous, let me say something, probably something I think I shouldn't as it may show too much of me. But maybe this will put your mind at ease. I am a very, very, introverted. I don't like to approach people. And in all actuality, I never got into MK9 because of winning, or thrill of competition, though these thoughts do fuel me. I got into Mk9 because of the people that are in it. Something I noticed is that as a community, we're a tight-nit family, because we care about something that to us feels like it can disappear at any moment. We cherish these little matches, these tournaments.
But to be honest, Mk9 has been my first fighter, I'm as green as they come. Hand eye cooridination aren't the best, reaction isn't up to par with those better than I. But even so, we all share the same feelings. For example, I had went to a tournament a few weeks back, first ever offline session I've been to. Nervous as hell, these dudes were playing Marvel, Street fighter, and Mk9. I had nothing in common with these dudes. I felt like I was in another world. But I'm very observant, I noticed that every player there had their hands shaking. Everyone, was in deed nervous. Why? Because we're human, these are emotions we cannot make disappear but control. And as I watched everyone play, I started to think. In a sense, I'm just like them. And if they can summon the courage to face their fears, as little or as big as they were, why can't I? All I can say is that I left that day happy, I met new people, learned new things. Understood so much more.
My point is this, if your not nervous, you aren't human. It's going to happen, don't be ashamed of it happening, just acknoweldge it. Come to terms with the fact that you are indeed afraid of what other will think of you. The minute you realise that, nothing else matters. I went to VSM last Thursday, a 2 hour trip all the way from the Bx, just to get closer to better competition. There was a little tournament they held and I knew I would lose, these guys were just too good. As I sat to play my frist opponent, who was DarkNatas, I noticed him shaking. And what made me feel ten times better was what he said while he shook, Something to this effect - "I'm nervous, I haven't played or practiced in a while" This was coming from an older man, who from what I knew had much more experience than I. Just those words changed my whole outlook on everything, and I decided win or lose, I'm going to leave better than I came. Ended up winning against Natas and Scoot, and lost to REO's Jade.
Dude, its ok to feel the way you do, its going to happen just don't let those things change you. Change what you want and what your aiming for. If you let that happen why bother even playing? You've already lost, to yourself.