bettyswallaux
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So to start, im not gonna get all emo on ya, but im gonna tell you my story, pretty depressing, but not emo 
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So about 2 and a half years ago i start coughing up blood, feeling tired all the time and losing a lot of weight. I had been in a job for 7 years at this point and with my future wife for 3 years already and life was about to take a turn for the worse..
I woke up and went to work, scared to tell anyone that i had been coughing blood and feeling exhausted all the time i tried to power through the days, but it just got to much and i went to the doctors. She made me temporarily quit my job cos she was concerened due to me being a smoker. I had a blood test which came back PERFECT, so i went for a chest/lung xray, that also showed nothing (although they said there was alot of wheezing around my lungs). The fatigue i felt kept me from going back to work, it got so bad that i actually started to faint if i didnt sit down soon. Then came the pain, my dog would crawl up onto my lap and as her paws dug into my musle i felt extreme pain.. I was back and for to the hospital for blood tests, then my mental health took a turn for the worst, I was put on medication for depression and anxiety. Me and my wife decided to get married but soon my illness took a toll on that to, seeing me ill and depressed all the time pushed her away from me, and she blamed herself. She ended it and i went to stay with my sister, finally after years of testing my condition was given a name "fibromyalgia" but they couldnt answer why i was bleeding from coughing... as well as other areas (ill leave that to your imagination). I play mortal kombat now and meet great people online cos of this game, and this great community, and i talk to alot of other players that have problems themselves and its great to know im not alone in the world, so thanks tym for existing, you never know just how much you help a person out.
..So about 2 and a half years ago i start coughing up blood, feeling tired all the time and losing a lot of weight. I had been in a job for 7 years at this point and with my future wife for 3 years already and life was about to take a turn for the worse..
I woke up and went to work, scared to tell anyone that i had been coughing blood and feeling exhausted all the time i tried to power through the days, but it just got to much and i went to the doctors. She made me temporarily quit my job cos she was concerened due to me being a smoker. I had a blood test which came back PERFECT, so i went for a chest/lung xray, that also showed nothing (although they said there was alot of wheezing around my lungs). The fatigue i felt kept me from going back to work, it got so bad that i actually started to faint if i didnt sit down soon. Then came the pain, my dog would crawl up onto my lap and as her paws dug into my musle i felt extreme pain.. I was back and for to the hospital for blood tests, then my mental health took a turn for the worst, I was put on medication for depression and anxiety. Me and my wife decided to get married but soon my illness took a toll on that to, seeing me ill and depressed all the time pushed her away from me, and she blamed herself. She ended it and i went to stay with my sister, finally after years of testing my condition was given a name "fibromyalgia" but they couldnt answer why i was bleeding from coughing... as well as other areas (ill leave that to your imagination). I play mortal kombat now and meet great people online cos of this game, and this great community, and i talk to alot of other players that have problems themselves and its great to know im not alone in the world, so thanks tym for existing, you never know just how much you help a person out.
Are you still having troubles?
When I dont think about it its ok but..... if I start im so depressed , im thinking about what if i really got cancer , will i die ? and all this stuff related to it ;/
