It has been scientifically proven that many people are born gay. Some maybe not but for most it is not a conscious decision, it is just who they are.
From personal experience, I agree. It's not a choice, at least not for me. I grew up in a Christain home, typical Hispanic family, so yeah, being gay was definitely not the norm in my household. Oddly enough being practically brainwashed through their religion(I put it like this because as a child, you have absolutely no say in this matter and your views are that your parents are what you idol, so you do what they do. You follow what they follow) it didn't embed itself. But that aside, growing up I did believe at some point that I would be punished for being gay, so I forced myself to take a liking to girls. I still remember guys I liked since 1st grade and onward, I already knew by that point what I was attracted to, but nonetheless, I tried to like girls as well due to the religion. So about the time of high school, I would consider myself bi, even though I favored guys a whole lot more. I had a few girlfriends, nothing serious, but even then it didn't feel "right". When I finally accepted myself(about the same time I said fuck it to religion), I felt so at peace. No more lying to myself at least, which is honestly a horrible feeling that you can't even be yourself with your own self. I got closer than normal with my best guy friend junior year, and our friends dared us to make out. Surprisingly he agreed, but after that it was dramatically different the feeling between the two genders.
Home life was still uneasy as my parents didn't know I was a "non-believer" AND that I was gay. Talk about a fucking mess if they found out. That drove me to wait till graduation and move out for college which I winded up doing. I knew my parents(meh, speaking solely about my mother) loved me, but I couldn't tell what the outcome would be given the circumstances. To me, I grasped the general message of Christianity and it confused me as to how so many just pick what they want from it and ignore the rest. That and how little love majority of Christians I've met actually have. I couldn't see the difference either between this and sexism and racism. All are human, people just like everyone else. Only a different gender, orientation, or skin color/nationality. I don't get what the segregating is all about. We're not harming anyone.
Anyways, so I spent a year in Florida. There I met great people, mainly my roommates, who pretty much became my family and I never experienced anything like it. A home that was free of judgement, free of religious bonds, and just so welcoming and loving. Around November, I decided to come out to my mom. I felt cowardly doing so, but I texted her rather than call. She texted back that she still loved me but I could tell it hurt her because we didn't speak for a few days and she normally called every night to see how I was(mainly if I was alive haha). After that it was awkward because we spoke as if nothing was said. Money matters caught up and I couldn't afford to stay in FL. She said I could always move back in and I pretty much had no other choice. It hurt leaving the one family that I felt at peace with, but I had no other otpions(though I did contemplate on doing porn for money XD). I get back, everything seems ok, but that constant little nagging for me to go to church was still there. As well as if we were together on the street, she would sometimes point out a girl and ask me what I thought of her -____- It's been about 6 months now since I moved back in with them but its like a slow knife. They say they're ok with it, as well as the non-believer thing, but the constant harrasment is still there. As well as the fact that its not like I can even be myself at home anyways. Can't even listen to rock that often anymore because they're so much more religious now and they claim its evil. I CAN'T EVEN PLAY MK SOMETIMES BECAUSE THEY SAY ITS DEMONIC WTF
