I've tried my hardest for the longest time to have fun playing the game and I am just forcing myself.
I could list everything I dislike about the game but it won't change anything and I don't want anyone who does enjoy it to start to not enjoy it based on my opinion.
Then on top of that I could find something that makes it enjoyable but then it gets patched out.
Because I don't have fun with it I don't have passion to be the best in it. When someone says someone is better than me it honestly doesn't trigger anything within me to care.
The characters I do like don't play the way I envision they should play. The characters I don't like play the way I envision they shouldn't play. If that makes sense.